grief is a childless mother who eats her young / she’s an axis / a disciple of loss and
life / she’d watch you flay yourself living / pull away when you try to hold on to
her / you’re left on your own / you only have you / with your thousand and one
pains / you wrap yourself around yourself / there she is again / pissing onto your
face.
In Hausa, we call the heart zuciya
So then, my heart becomes zuciya na
Zuciya na –
She’s found a new way to perish
Trusting the shadowy words of men
Speaking all the languages of death
Slipping into pain like it’s her home
Zuciya na –
She sings while she burns.
Grandmother taught me to peel grief from my body
She taught me to name my nameless fears
Trickle into spaces
Into people
Spill myself out of my vessel
Grandmother taught me to open the world’s eyes to me.
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